Why can’t we play to my strengths please?
Right now we’re in the midst of promoting our play, The Hair Chronicles. This is a hard, near impossible, task for me. Now, I believe strongly that we have written a beautiful story that women from all backgrounds can relate to and enjoy. However, it goes it gets my very nature to promote myself. It’s not that I don’t share my life with others, but I don’t do a good job being my own cheerleader….and that’s with my friends. With strangers it’s even harder for me to “sell” myself. I’m still haunted by the Stranger Danger videos from the 1980s.
Anyway, this whole process causes me great anxiety. I mean, I’m having full panic attacks. Today is the second day this week that I have just wanted to throw in the towel and hide because the thought of having to go out to talk to strangers leaves me filled with tears, unable to breathe and running back to bed. I’m trying to find the strength of my mother who could talk to anyone. I wish that she was here right now. She would know exactly what to tell me to get me through this situation. Instead, I’m hiding in my bed and praying for divine intervention. Keep your fingers crossed for me.