Today I was going to write about my experience in Mexico. However, I feel like I need to write about my feelings and my struggles with some of my friends. Hopefully writing about these feelings will allow me to move on. ::fingers crossed::
I don’t know what to do. I have always considered myself a good friend. I try to be there for my friends when they need me…and even when they don’t need me. Most of my friends do the same for me, and I am so thrilled to have them in my life. They are my family. Yet, there are those who repeatedly let me down. I’m continuously being hurt by their actions. I try tell them directly, though I fail at times, when they hurt me, but I don’t know that it matters. Instead it seems to fly over their heads or it is laughed off.
I don’t know what to do with my feelings. It isn’t in my nature to just blow people off once we become close friends. So it’s unclear to me what I should do next. Do I try to state my feelings again and hope that this time things will be different? How many times can you repeat the same situation before it becomes complete insanity?