Day 6: Soft
It’s hard to think about things that are soft when I’m trying to be strong.
I am an emotional cutter.
Emotional cutter — Someone, while is feeling sad or depressed, purposefully seeks out things, i.e. movies, TV shows or music, that will add to those depressing feelings. Example: I was missing my mom, so I watched the movie Dumbo.
Anyway, I’m trying to change my ways — stop the emotional cutting. Yesterday I made a bet with one of my closest friends — $10 will be paid to him for every emotional cutting incident until the end of February. It’s tough for me, especially through Valentine’s Day (aka Single Awareness Day). My brain steers my thoughts towards the negative possibilities in life, yet this perspective only hurts me. It isolates me from people, especially new people. I don’t want to do that.
I want to break the cycle of negative thought. I want to believe in the positive possibilities. I want to believe that good things can, and should, happen to me. So I need to stop emotional cutting. I need to be strong…thankfully I can rest my head on the soft pillows.